Beautiful Life

New life

2007-10-17T03:53:00.000-07:00

Exams round the corner... still got tons to study.. projects not over... well anyway i am not here to blog or lament about exams and studies.. there is more to this than life. I am so glad i made it to modern jazz.. i believe i should be a better dancer in time to come..

Feel different these days.. having led a life so shitty in the past, i cant help but feel content of my standard of living now. Yet i know of the things that i am short of and i am going to earn it myself.

My beloved fren attempted suicide last week. I do not know the reason why, maybe i am not old enough for him to believe that telling me will help his situation. I will do my best to be by his side...

Phillip has left the church, i wish him the all the best in life.

Yes i am still into transformers and it is now a hobby i should haf started earlier if i had more money.

Life is short, you come to this world with nothing and you will leave this world with nothing. Be happy with what you have and the people who you treasure for one moment they could be gone..

Say no to Computer Engine. Damn bloody Hell Hole

Time of the year again...

2007-09-12T07:11:00.000-07:00

Its the time where i start to get busy.. Dance, Hall, Projects projects and more projects.. damn it.. Thank God i made it into NTU Modern Jazz.. sch life isnt that boring now..

Labs and projs are just wasting so much of my time.. dunno wat use will my degree be in future.. jus take things as it come..

I am starting to find time really short these days.. everyday is a packed day.. wish i can just spend a day slacking at home.. doing the things i want.. have some more money to spend on the things i like. (Transformers, Clothes, Food)

Below is my Transformers Binaltech series collection. Iwont say how much i spent but its definitley beyond anyone's imagination. But i am pretty sure i wont be spending anymore on old collectibles(they cost alot now bcos they were cheap 3-4years ago)

I really want to be smarter and be of help to my project mates.. but really i cant understand much abt engineering subjects.. i wonder why i am here.. is it really fate and God's plan?? Damn demoralising at times to feel useless and a "free rider"..

So long since i last blogged..

2007-07-17T10:17:00.001-07:00

Ok got tons to write about.. lets just say i am happy that my entrepreneurship minor is finally put on hold till next sem and i finally get my deserved break for 3 weeks. YES!

I am a little 'addicted' to transformers now.. everone wants a piece of it.. yes and this year from zero transformers.. i suddenly own 4 now! Lets not talk abt how much i spent on it.. but yes lets say i am jus happy that my childhood wish is fulfilled

Optimus Prime - From the movie

Hot Rod - Bday Gift from CG

Prowl Honda Integra Version

Ravage Corvette Version

Ah yes.. my bday was just over.. Nice comfy dinner at fish n co. Wanna thank my frens for e presents that i was blessed with.

Natasha - Bible Promise Book; Kelvin - Levi's Tee; Aunt - T-Shirt & Belt; Felicia - Korean Chopsticks & Photo Frame. Mum & Dad & Sis - Ang Bao; NTU Comp Eng bros - Wallet; CG - Transformers Hot Rod

Feel really blessed... A little lazy to blog.. but yeah next few weeks b4 sch starts i will be bz.. time is precious.. gotta spend it well.. n yes gotta spend my money wisely.. no more transformers till i make some cash.. Till then i guess i can 'transform' myself heh

Its over..

2007-06-21T00:56:00.000-07:00

Sigh.. guess its all over.. I am surprised actually by how quick it started and ended.. I do not have an answer; neither do i know it.. guess somethings are better left unsaid.. I am surprised at how emotions n feelings came despite our various differences..

I wonder what would have happened if i didnt have to leave... Now i will never know..

I knew i was ready to go all out.. But i knew too late..

Gone for church camp. Back on 18th

2007-06-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

Hey people, i am gone for church camp... be back on the 18th. Take care everyone...

(Drink more water. Take proper meals. Be praying for you.)

Saturdays with

2007-06-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

Watched Spiderman again.. i cant seem to get sick of that show.. so meaningful and touching..

Had an lunch at this jap restaurant that is not up to standard... her stomach was suffering from gastric problems.. worried she would throw up... but i was feelin abit jaded from the lack of sleep..

Back home now.. gotta do research on the google case study.. n sleep early! NIght..

"It is the choices that makes us who we are and we can always choose to do whats right"
-Peter Parker

Thanks to..

2007-06-07T11:18:00.000-07:00

Passed all again... D+ for maths e scary part... Thanks to all who prayed for me, who cheered for me, who believed in me. God who watched me when i was fighting to pass, thank you for not letting me die... Special thanks to my church mates who prayed .. Natasha, Yong Qing, Sharon, Jiamin, Pat, Cheri, Li Kai, John, Char etc etc

I am the "Genius of Hard Work".. friends, family, lets hope the legacy goes on...

EN103: Managing New and Ongoing Ventures

2007-06-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

Crazy 2 presentations in 2 weeks.. now i know what its like to truly have sleepless nights.. i am still not used physically to not have at least 6hrs of sleep. Been working on our presentation since wednesday morning till this morning about 730am.. where my nose started to breakdown.. then me.. shockingly slept till 1230. Rushed down to change and prepare.. the team is AWESOME man. Cheers! I really believe now that true colours are shown in difficult times. My team was tired, demoralised, beaten down, sick, stressed. But we never gave up! We never blamed each other! ITs been one hell of a ride guys.. KEvin, Delvin, Denise, Leon, Zac, Steward.. I will never forget the times we spent in sauna ADM. i salute your cooperation, ur desire for excellence and the team comaradie that we have shown. We kicked ass today at the presentation. Really kicked some serious ass.

5am in the morning...

2007-05-24T13:58:00.000-07:00

Just finished my work for my upcoming project... Going to sleep soon.. It may be tough, but strangely i am happy =)

Played with photoshop again.. This time i did wolverine.. not as good as spidey, but satisfied with my 1st product.

So speaking of wolverine.. i felt that we were similar in someways.. so i wikipediaed Wolverine to find out about his character.. and this is what if found:

"Wolverine is private and often gruff but, despite popular belief, does not enjoy killing or giving into his berserker rages. Logan adheres to a firm code of personal honor and morality, despite often displaying a rebellious and irreverent attitude. Coincidentally, Wolverine seems to defy authority on any team he is on. However, he has proven time and time again of being a valuable and reliable teammate. He has had many romantic relationships with numerous women throughout the decades, most of which aren't known. His most meaningful have included Itsu, Silver Fox, Mariko Yashida, and a flirtation with Jean Grey. He has found a family in the X-Men and provides a father figure to Kitty Pryde and Jubilee."

Green: What i believe to be similar

Red: Hmmm?? Doubtful; Not for me to judge

Week 1 report

2007-05-19T10:01:00.000-07:00

End of my 1st week in the minor course, i must say though it is tough, i have learnt alot, made new friends and can still smile in the storm.. Afterall they said this road will only get tougher n tougher as it goes along.. so how could i possibly die now? Got an accounting test on monday and report deadline on wed...

Life is just so unpredictable... People come and go. This is a fact of life that i have to face up with sooner or later. Got usher duty tmr, followed by dance practice.. sigh.. have project meeting at night with Mike, then i still gotta study for e test tmr... WTH!

Celebrated Apple's bday at KTV. Gotta know my minor friends better as i build a new friendship. Pics to come as soon as i get them from Qing Ge.

"Every Super Hero is given a choice. Who do you choose to be??"

Me: "Black"

Thanks to David for doing this Spidey pic for me. Learnt a great deal from him!

Original Tobey Maguire

More pics to come..

One Man

2007-05-16T09:45:00.000-07:00

Sadness... I find it hard to explain. Confusion... is what i am going thru. Maybe being in this minor is a good thing... then i will be too busy to feel anything...

There's a man. Who loves you so much.

There's a man. Who can't even say I love you.

I kept it all in my heart, just so that u wont go away

How wrong i was, for all good things must come to an end

I, who cherishes you more than myself,when i am with you.
To make you laugh, I think of only that and

When and where ever you are I'm watching you and missing you.

And who worries of only you,

There's a girl, who doesn't know I'm suffering like this.

Who receives love but doesn't even know that it is love.

Leaving you, who is as foolish as I and sad,

At this moment tears come

When i turn around, you're no longer by my side.

-Adapted by K

Feelin Damn SAD can??

Entrepeurnership

2007-05-14T10:11:00.000-07:00

Today marks the end of my 1 week holiday as i embark on my 2month Minor Program in Entrepreuneurship.. I have heard stories of how tough it is going to get.. how i wont have time for anything else but project deadlines...I pray that this will not be true for me.. I am glad to have made friends on the way..

New Friends Zac and Kian Teong

Went to my Grandma's grave on saturday.. i am glad to see how the children and everyone in the family are still doing fine..

I love Spiderman 3.. I love the moral of the story.. on forgiveness.. strugglin with the inner demon inside u..

I really really wanna improve on my dance skills this holiday... Hope that my minor wont kill me..

Met up with dearest Natasha today.. Had a great time with her.. Bought 2 shirts n she picked one of them..

My Choice - Rugged casual check

Sophie's Choice - Gentlemen Flower Motiffs

Friends and all.. Please pray that i can have time... to spend and rest..

Vanness Kangta 127 days

2007-04-22T09:34:00.001-07:00

Love this video... sometimes i feel like KangTa in the Mtv.. jus dun haf e guts to fight for my own love..

No Mood to Study

2007-04-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

Sian sia no mood to study... after 2 weeks of hardcore muggin.. i think i have run out of steam.. "K" needs to regain his momentum.. been thinkin of fallin in love.. but then i have fear too.. of rejection.. controlling my feelings..

Flipped through my baby pictures.. saw pictures of my beloved Grandma and I.. Nv had the chance and courage to verbally tell her that i love her.. i hope my actions could speak on behalf of those words..

Remorseful Post

2007-04-09T08:11:00.000-07:00

When i said that no one was an encouragement to me,
I was Lying.

The truth was, you all have been great thus far...

but i am confused...

In order to get a better idea, i decide to step out of the picture

To see this portrait of love, if truly i have a place in it...

Sweet Girl

2007-02-22T04:48:00.000-08:00

Hey Girl, i hear you miles away
as though you're right next to me.
Happy as u seem outside
I know u r tearing inside.
Oh you silly girl...

What your friends cant see
Is that behind that chirpy smile
A broken heart thats torn apart

I believe in you so i think about you
Dun u know all your emotions you feel
Happiness and sorrow
I feel for you twice as you do?

You are my Sweet Girl~~
To see ur angelic smile again
I lay it all down for you
Sweet Girl... Just for you.

Penned by: K

I for U

2007-02-04T09:44:00.000-08:00

I do not know.
Has skepticism stopped my ability to love?
Times spent with u make me glad.
Is it fear that stops me from going all out for u?
If only i can put that all aside.
All i want to say is,
If i have the chance,
Everything i have,
i give it all.

I can see that you have been hurt.
The truth is, everyone has experienced it.
If i could, i wanna take your tears
heal the scars that still hurt;
replace it with joy; all of it.
I for U.

For now, just let me continue to be by your side.
To continue to secretly give u support
Just like a secret super hero.
That will always be there in your time of need.
All of it.
I for U.

Fate

2007-01-16T06:21:00.000-08:00

I am a born fighter. That is an incorrect statement. I am a born struggler. Correct. Some pple jus dun need to study hard, they will deliver. Some say its called studying smart. Thats bcos u r smart so u r able to study smart.

Its difficult to be happy at times, when u haf nothing given to u. Everything u do n want gotta be achieved on ur own.

Fate plays an important role in your life. Sometimes things happen bcos of fate, n no matter how hard u try to go against it... Its no use..

Christmas

2006-12-24T08:26:00.000-08:00

This clip touched my heart

Family gatherings are always a warm affair, but its a sad thing when u r not feeling well.

Xmas in Meteor Garden

2006-12-11T09:09:00.000-08:00

Rewatching Meteor Garden again... feelin dreamy... life is gettin better... feel happier about life now... its abt time to start that magical moment one more time isnt it??? Haix.. so bz wif hall activities and church... what can happen at this moment? I can only wonder...

Exam results are comin in abt 2 weeks... moment of truth is approaching for me...

Story of a boy with no talent

2006-10-10T10:59:00.000-07:00

I believe if you lack talent, hard work can make up of it. This sentence means alot to me. Today i submitted my 2nd blank answer script for Java. I think i did not work hard enough; i was not focused enough when studying. This video cant describe any better to how i feel... Taken from the anime "Naruto". About a boy called Rock Lee who had no talents at all, but he had only one talent - n that is hardwork.

For me who lack talents, at least there is a door opened to me, and that is to work hard...thats a relieve. Just work hard.

One Night Only - Return of the Jedi

2006-10-06T21:05:00.000-07:00

Wed Night, after Korean Class i received a call. Looking at my cell phone display, i see a familiar number that i would remember seeing everyday for the past 1 yr. I answered the phone.

K : "Hello, hey Wayne! Hows Life? What? Now? Where? Marina South?? Okay... Right! Lets just do this, for the good old times sake!

And so, i did something very untypical of me - spent 18 dollars taking a cab from NTU to Marina South to join my former army pals for a gathering.

Saw everyone looking well, Staff Teo and Staff Low has posted out; Sgt James is Ording; my patch mates Kelvin & Cheah Liang has orded... things have changed indeed...

Yeo Yi, u still drink like a girl! Wayne, Edmund u both haven changed much... Staff Ooi, forever my best staff, superior, elder bro in my stay in army. Thanks...

Had a little drinks, had fun... just like the good old days.. I couldnt sense the malicious atmosphere that i could so strongly feel in the office camp... Its like as if we didnt suffer at all... but i guess its only through difficult times that we can truly build a bond...

Army turns boys to men.
People come and go, but the memories we had together is forever...

BBQ-ing

Huat, me, Ong

Staff Ooi - the one and only

Teachings from Master Yoda

2006-09-19T09:53:00.000-07:00

The Force is what gives a Jedi his power. It's an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us and penetrates us. It binds the galaxy together.

Do or do not. There is no try

Size matters not. Look at me. Judge me by my size, do you? Hmm? Hmm. And well you should not. For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is.

Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the Force around you; here, between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere, yes. Even between the land and the ship.

Remember, a Jedi's strength flows from the Force. But beware. Anger, fear, aggression. The dark side are they. Once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny. Luke... Luke... do not... do not underestimate the powers of the Emperor or suffer your father's fate you will. Luke, when gone am I... the last of the Jedi will you be. Luke, the Force runs strong in your family. Pass on what you have learned, Luke. There is... another... Sky... walker.

Someone bring me my lightsabre - Keigo

6 Weeks

2006-09-17T10:20:00.000-07:00

How is Keith after 6 weeks of school; 6 weeks out of army? Bottomline: School no matter how stressful, tiring, boring etc can never get worse than being in army. So cheers to that!

Next week is my eagerly awaited 1week term break. Time to catch up on ALL my subjects. yea.. i am lagging behind each and everyone of them. I love econs. maybe its the easiest subject to study, or maybe i am jus more inclined towards the business. But i love the challenge i am getting now of being in a tough course. I shall aim for my best and let god do the rest.

I miss my buddies in sch, poly, 108 and army. Have not met them ever since sch started. Bros, u r all dear to me, when i finally settle all my sch work i promise that we shall meet up yar?

Conversation on Friday

CG: "What do you do when you face a difficult time/struggle?"

Keigo: "I fight to overcome it"

CG: "Do you pray about it, for God to help you?"

Keigo: "Yes"

CG: "Do you trust that God will help you if you seek him?"

Keigo: "Yes, but i will do all i can with my own strength to overcome the difficulty as well. God is not someone who creates miracles as an when he wants i think? Neither is he a Genie."

CG: "What keeps you going on in a time of difficulty?"

Keigo: "Clinging on to the hope that one day it will eventually be over"

Something they didnt ask - "What would make you strong?"
I am not a person who can be strong all the time, but i do know that when i have something close to my heart that i want to protect, that there is someone out there i want to bring a smile to... thats when i truly become strong.

Can i still consider myself a christian when its not totally God that makes me strong? I haf to confess that God has really changed my life for better eversince i welcomed him back to my life. Thank you God, this life of mine - i owe it to you. You have brought hope to my life.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
-1Cor 13:13

SHINHWA CHANG JO

2006-09-10T09:59:00.000-07:00

Finally, i get a chance to see SHINHWA live... somehow it wasnt as good as i had expected it to be... being seated at the less "enthu" corner, i guess the rest wasnt as hyped about it as i was. I finally get to see the "dance machine" M - aka Lee Minwoo strutting his groove... awesome!! Shinhwa as a whole package is great but honestly M alone was enough to bring the house down.
Couldnt take good pictures as the seating wasnt near enough...

Dance Machine M

Seeing them dance makes me wanna get back to the dance studio n improve my dance, but time is not on my side now... gotta catch up wif my studies n prepare for my lab test this comin tues. My left knee is injured as well, cant even climb up stairs without feeling pain. I need to recover soon, Xmas is coming... if all goes well - a Dance project will be on its way.

K is back!

2006-08-29T22:59:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps. Writing again after finishing Java Project 1/10. The journey is still long but the heart is raring to go. School is so much more fun compared to army. Kinda used to sleeping at 2am now, but its bad when i have 830 lectures, fighting to keep awake.

So what have i been up to for the past mth in sch? Still haven got my Hall Camp Pics. But its quite an eye opener for me attending their Dinner and Dance. Dressed as Slamdunk Characthers, we looked kinda out of place when everyone else rented costumes.

Nothin much to say for now... A little brain dead, gonna take a nap.

I AM GOING TO SHINHWA CONCERT 10 SEPT

DOWN

2006-08-20T10:22:00.000-07:00

1.17am. Blogging because i cant do any of my tutorials... I feel damn useless... damn stupid... how did i ever make it to university... Flipping through the textbooks/notes... cant find the solution... After Yi Hao tried to explain the question to me.. things seemed clearer... Am i going to fail??

I remembered telling myself that for my last 4 yrs of my studying life, i have to live it to the fullest. I shall be active in my social circle and have lotsa fun yet do well in my studies... At this rate, i can only see myself going downhill...

Looking back over the past few years... I have been titled "The Overcomer' Fighter" by my friends.. They know me, that no matter how many i need to try, i will eventually overcome adversity and emerge victorious... but i have to admit that i never felt so low of confidence before...

I am out of the dance team... is it God's way of telling me i cant cope wif my studies?? Oh God.. now what am i to do?? All that passion for dance... i wanted to develop it further.. i feel like giving it up...

Bro Loyalle, if only u were enrolling to Com Eng the same yr as me... then i wont feel so lost. Yong Qing, thanks for everything. U were always ever willing to lend a helping hand...

I just felt ministered this morning during Church when Danny talked abt loving God as much as i love the world.. now.. i feel dead... God, u see me writing this post.. u can see me struggling in school... would u grant me wisdom? I dun ask for much, just a little... I am tired of working hard.. because this time hard work may not pay off...

Better Not Fall inside again...

2006-08-16T10:51:00.000-07:00

I am blogging at 147am in the night as i am doing my tutorials n i am sick of them already... Korean class was really fun today and i am glad i am studying korean. Haven updated much.. basically since coming to Uni, i have been packed 24/7 with commitments and activities. I promise to spend time with my parents least once a week, i have to attend CG on fri nites and church on Sun morning; Everyday my lessons start avg 9 and ends at 530 and the worse of all is tues ending at 730. Wed nights 7-9 are my korean classes and finally if i do make it to the Modern Jazz club, my thurs nights are occupied. Really i am being someone who hasnt got much personal time to myself... and now my heart is wavering...

I am to control myself this time.. at least till i know i am prepared... haix
sorry its matters of the heart that i do not wish to discuss...

Finally its over...

2006-07-29T01:38:00.000-07:00

I am out of army for now. Thank God. Hell with army. To my bros Kelvin, Guna and all the NSFs... hang in there... with each passing day u know u r inching closer towards the end of this Hell Ride.. u can see the light that represents freedom... more importantly, u will be back to "pink" soon.

Take care my dearest bro Kelvin, without u for the past yr i wouldnt know how i am going to survive the hell.. My stay in buddy, my dinner kaki, my shopping/image consultant. HAHa wat else??? Thanks for everything you have done for me, the things you have taught me I will always remember... U r a great guy, dun ever think tt u belong to the dark side, cos God loves us all the same...

Staff OOI, when everyone was trying to put me down, u lifted me up. U taught me the ropes without once imposing your rank on me. I will never forget the times we stayed late in office rushing all the pointless work together. We will then have a few drinks with WaTan and watch VCDs in the messroom. U r a genius staff, I shall await ur ORD and then the 2 powers shall combine once again... Congrats on ur baby boy.. its a xmas baby... must have a reason for it..

Gunalan, u r the only person who has ever shown me respect for my rank. I thank u for that. I am glad to have met you. Dun let other pple tekan u wif sai gang anymore k? u r the "Ice-Cube" of SB.

Tang/Harpal - the 2 new "Sark Cork" buddies of SB after Me n Kelvin. Stick close n enjoy the friendship that u both have found. Take care of Edmund also once in awhile la haha.

Lucas/Sooltap/Heng - You 3 have been nice to me. Thanks for being generous with me. Wayne thanks for being so cooperative with me in office. Lucas - thanks for being like a "big brother"; if u know what i mean.

My brothers of "zeng-heng" - Ong, Ah huat, James, Roy, Allan Tay. Thank you for not drawing a clear NSF/Regular line in between me. Thanks for the times and memories we had drinking. I shall toast to our friendship.

Ernest/WaiKay/Ryan - Didnt get to spend much time with you all. Take care of each other there n continue to do things with your head held high.

Jerry - U OKAY leh. Jia you regular batch mate... New Sky Earth outing must jio me. Haha

Blogspot cant upload my pics.. this is irritatin...

one day

2006-07-29T01:29:00.000-07:00

This goes to ...
"My two eyes only look at youMy two ears only hear news about you
And my two silly feet no matter how hard I try, they don't move
My heart seems to have stopped the time we went our separate ways
I'm still insufficient- not ready to forget you.
So it's a good thing that you left such a selfish guy, good thing you forgot me.
I'll try to survive and endure, and even try to forget you.
So that my childlike/immature/naive heart and two eyes.no longer can search/find you...
Wow... Baby how did we end up hereYou know it’s funny. I just miss you so much.
I still remember holding you kissing you.I could still see you right here lying in my arms.
Baby I’m waiting for youI just want you to know. I love you.
One day passes and another, I'll probably be the same.how silly I am...
and even as the years go by..
I'll probably be the same.
I'll try to forget and even reminisce, probably even cry.
My silly heart continues, not realizing that you're no longer here."

Love is just too ma fan la... causing heartaches all over. So try not to fall in love so soon, until u r sure u can keep it.

Happy Birthday Keigo (2)

2006-07-16T05:02:00.000-07:00

Backed with pics of my bday BBQ. Had my 1st ever "dunking" by my pals. Loyalle was unfortunate to go down with me. Hah. Jes was such an entertainer that nite; making us laugh with her humour and "ignorance" about army.

PArt 1: BBQ preparation...

Part 2: Captured and Dunked...Loyalle wasnt spared...

Part 3: Cake Cutting/Photo Taking

Haiz. Blogger cant upload the other pics...

To be continued...

Happy Birthday Keigo

2006-07-09T09:31:00.000-07:00

Its my Birthday today. Felt the love of my CG, my friends who called me to wish me happy birthday... SMSes.. Had a CG bbq with Eugene, Jeremy, Kelvin and Kang Wei. Wish Joseph Deng, Natasha, Tricia, 108 n some Sec/Pri sch frens were here. That would be quite complete. Had dinner with my family yesterday - Quality Time well spent.

Never had so many Birthday presents in a very very long time... but this bday i got...

An Adidas Tee from Kang Wei and Kelvin!

CoffeeBean Card from my Sis!

And a BOOK from CG!

Tie from Sophia!

What a happening start to the month of July! Just 3 weeks to disruption and beginning of School!

To Be Continued...

30 Days

2006-07-02T03:12:00.000-07:00

Finally my parents have their own bed in the house and i am glad to see them sleeping comfortably at night in air conditioned rooms. I am thankful to my Dad for installing great Air conditions in all our rooms in this time of crazy hot weather. This week has been a tiring week at work with lots of demands from my superiors.

Had another lesson of Hip Hop with Patricia and Lta Wang at 'Jitterbugs'. Dance instructor looked so cool with her groove and energy which i cannot bring out. That brings me to realise that a good dance comes with practice. I am sure over time my moves will only get slicker and smoother.

Its 30 days to Disruption. Countdown starts now.

The spiritual climate all over is currently at "Low"

A Song For You

2006-06-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

I will remember how you showed me the way to make life beautiful... Its because of you.
The memories we had... though little but its precious...
I closed my eyes and pictured the images in my mind... and as hard as i could; i closed the shutter deep inside my heart.

Post Camp Review

2006-06-16T21:40:00.000-07:00

Back from the camp and i must say it is a real culture shock for me. Totally different from what i had expected it to be... Sermon after sermon has caused me to feel like i am in a school, as i struggle to keep myself awake; It was almost as if i was "slain" due to the intense mental condition my mind was put in as i constantly "ran" towards God. Nevertheless, i took back with me many precious messages that i shall constantly meditate on.

CG UNITED

Never knew games are that intense and physical in church. Okay so now i know. Period.

Thanks to Natasha, Joe for keeping me company on the night i got food poisoning. Thanks to Kah Fei and Jiamin for takin me to the hospital. Thanks bro Loyalle for taking care of me during my journey back to Singapore... And to everyone who in one way or another prayed for my safety. I truly appreciate drinking water off my tap now.
Natasha had jus received the "gift of healing"!

And Loyalle took care of me till he too "knocked out"

Coming to the end of the 1st half of 2006... 2nd half READY?! Get ready to start my engine... Brmmm.... Brmmm!

Cya There.....

Day before church camp...

2006-06-11T05:51:00.000-07:00

Gonna leave for my 1st church camp tmr. Its really kinda exciting to be away from the world... just to have that taste of heaven... i look forward to spending this time hearing from God and to build a better bond with my church mates..

No this aint the hotel i will be staying in for church camp. Its Shangri-la Hotel. Watch the world cup in your bath tub!

Breakfast like this? Maybe...

So many things have happened recently.. upsets me greatly to see those dear to me hurt. But God kinda said, "This is just another episode of life that will be over soon"; guess i just have to pray.

Tricia n I

Natasha has moved on the working adults... will miss her dearly...

"Though people come and go, my friend stays forever..." -Keith

CG outing.

Stage Clear... Time to Start your Engine!

2006-06-11T04:26:00.000-07:00

Finally passed my driving and got my license after a year, strangely i feel a kind of relief more than ecstacy. Seems like passing it on the 3rd attempt has lost much reason for a celebration. I believe to have spent close to 2k or more on it... just greatful to God that this financial burden is off my back.

Final Fantasy X

2006-05-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

I finally completed the game i had always wanted to play - Final Fantasy X.
Great game, great storyline.

I am a person who needs to finish off anything that i start with. It gives me a good sense of accomplishment.

Store your treasures in Heaven, not on earth...

2006-04-23T02:25:00.000-07:00

How was the past 2 mths?? Disastrous absolutely... if failing driving isnt enough, losing my new N70 isnt bad enough... maybe losing my cross chain would just spell the meaning of Disastrous. God perhaps taught me to learn how to let go off the treasures on earth and start storing the treasures in heaven.

Its coming to the end of April... leaving me with 12weeks before i disrupt National Service for NTU. Oh God please keep me in your arms during this period of time...

Once again i confess that i am bad with words, thus explaining my short writings on my blog. But i have been reading books with hope that i can learn to write with more flair and substance. For now, let the pictures do the talking.

Its Wilson's Bday

So Happy to be with entire CG and KElviN

Phillips "Last Supper"

Oops i failed again...

2006-03-05T04:44:00.000-08:00

Man... failed driving yet again! Sigh... not very promising start to the new year... disappointed as i may be... i shall give it another shot... hopefully before church camp...

Haven updated for exactly one mth now... life is cool... someone tell me when is easter... got a dance item supposedly.. but Pat says she most probably needs the gals only.. oh well we shall see.

lets take a look at what i have been up with for month of Feb yar??

CG outing at Settler's Cafe

Lunch with long time fren John(he's camera shy)

Out with Kelvin in Allan's Car

Community Penetration at Whampoa

Wilson has been bugging me to go gym and whoot ah!

So seems like a fruitful month. Decided to start reading abit on my french and see if i can make something out of it... Only thing that is bad was my driving... lets all hope i make it on my 3rd attempt! Till next time...

Things to look forward to...

2006-02-05T06:04:00.000-08:00

Been sometime since i last blogged a proper entry. Things r gonna get real bz this month. But i do hope that i am gonna pass my driving on 2 Mar. Oh God i need u favour to grant me skill.

I am really feeling optimistic about the things God is going to bless me with this year. This year is a yr of great expectations and i am lookin forward to many things. I believe God will help me grow in my faith and love towards people. I believe that when someone has hurt you deeply, we can forgive but indeed forgetting is difficult. Why does the bitter sour feeling still linger down my throat as i try to swallow it with grace? Oh God i ask that u will grant me faith n grace this yr as this is my spiritual resolution for the year.

What i will be looking forward to after passing my driving would definitley be my disruption from army. Indeed the 19mths in the "Green Inferno" has moulded me to be a better and stronger man. I truly understand the saying of 'Army is where boys become men' now after going through it.

Next i hope that my house "merger" will be completed my late May. There has been lots of talk but little action and i do hope we can step up with the renovations and my family can live together again. haha.

Following that is gonna be the start of my Uni Sem! Oh how much i have looked forward to my uni life and indeed i thank God for blessing me with the Computer Engineering Course. Rumours has it said of it being very tough and taxing, but i believe God will put me up for the challenge! Fun fun fun!

So folks, so much to look forward to this year... not forgetting church camp... worship team and many more! Do wish me all the best this year yar??

A Meaningful Prayer...

2006-01-25T04:53:00.000-08:00

Father, forgive my sins as I forgive those who have sinned against me. But Father, also help my heart to be gripped by the gravity of sin's effects and to be stirred into action to help those whom it has trapped. Through Jesus, who came to rescue me from my sin, I pray. Amen

Update

2006-01-08T06:47:00.000-08:00

Dear readers, how have everyone been lately? Do drop by a HI in my tagboard so i can how your life is getting along too. The new year has started well for me, I am starting to play a more active role in church and i am also gearing up for the new uni semester. Going to disrupt on July 7 if nothing goes wrong. I cant wait for that day to come...

New Year '06

2006-01-02T07:32:00.000-08:00

For the 1st time in my life i counted down to the New Year. Spending it with Brighton seemed special, especially when we had a CG session at my house before setting of together in Katong Hostel. I never have been known to be one who can really dress up like some Superstar, but I did try to look exceptionally good for our Church New Yr Celebration. It was fun, erm yeah i really kinda enjoyed it haha.

Sophia wif Scaredy the Cat

CG all present minus Loyalle (Pls check out my the girl far right from bottom dressed in green wearing a scary expression on her face. HAHA thats cool!)

Double C (Carol N Chin Teck) wif K

Whos that nerd in the middle?!

Oh btw, welcome to 2006. Sophia brought out a gd point - we are just 40 years to 2046. Hah. This is gonna be a year of changes and happenings. I look forward to lots of good things to come this year. Just remember folks, God will make a way; when there seems to be no way... Faith is all you need... So just let God take the lead.

Post Xmas. Countdown to 2006

2005-12-27T00:20:00.000-08:00

This Xmas, i danced for God, i saw my parents attend service. Though there were no thrills and spills... no fancy parties, all the Xmas hype and stuff, I felt it was a meaningful Xmas. I had friends, family and nice people around. Guess its a good way to end the year.

Really big thanks to all who came to watch me dance. My family, Kelvin, Kang Wei, Chiow and Jarrod. U r a great encouragement for me and i am sure u will see better performances from me in future.

From left: Aaron, ChinHao, Me, (Sharon),Eugene, Loyalle

My pals who came to support!

Give thanks to God for my boss Ivan's arrived on earth on Xmas Day! Can really see a smile and joy in his face that i seldom get to see in office.

Had a nice dinner with my Church Family. Looks like God is showing me the path to go... and i can see where he is pointing towards...

Sleepless ...

2005-12-21T09:32:00.000-08:00

I just cant get to sleep. My mind is runnin non stop, thinkin and thinking... just what should i do now? Is this the end? Maybe...
Think i should pray abt it. The movie "Be With You" would very much be an encouragement to me right now.

Time for Xmas!

2005-12-20T06:30:00.000-08:00

Sorry to all my pals for not being able to spend time with them. Have to practice hard for the upcoming dance performance this saturday/sunday. Realised how hard boy bands like Energy and Shinhwa have to practice everyday after this dance experience. Just one song can take up to weeks of practice... Promise to spend more time wif ya after the event is over. To all friends who promised to come, here are the sneaks of the hunks/babes who are in the dance team!

Cya this Xmas...

Non - Sense

2005-12-14T07:47:00.000-08:00

I didnt mean to disappoint. I guess I lack heart. Sitting alone at home... maybe i can reflect on my own doings... before deciding on my next step.
Lost in the snow... I feel blurry... There is work tomorrow... Did i not try at all??
What was said to me... felt Cold.. I should just go into deep hibernation...
One more task to accomplish though... Do I still have it in me to get the job done?? Maybe
Should just go to sleep. Stop writing crap. Tomorrow will be a better day... yea I know it will be...

Dancing for God

2005-12-11T08:57:00.000-08:00

Less than 1 week to the performance on 17th Dec. Pray that God can bring out the best in me...

Pray for more friends to come. In particular Joseph and his GF, Kelvin, Chiow, Jeremy, Kang Wei and GF, my cousin Koon Kiat and of coz my Sister.

Xmas is coming... will it be different this year?? I so eagerly await that special sparkle?

Maybe...

Kelvin aka Wa Zai

Right - Koon Kiat Left - My cousin Jeremy

My Sis

Jeremy

Joseph

To all friends in case you dunno, i will be performing a dance as part of a drama play on 17th 3pm ,24th 3pm, 25th 10am Venue: Singapore Post Centre(Directly outside paya lebar MRT) Interested in having a meaninful and peaceful Xmas with your loved ones?? Pls do not hesistate to msg me. You r free to bring your loved ones along!!! Dinner will be provided. It should end before 8pm k? So just come!!!

Movie Recommendation "Be With You"

2005-12-11T08:06:00.000-08:00

On a quiet saturday night where i was doing COS duty (some army duty la). I finally managed to buy the VCD "Be With You". I have been thinking hard whether to buy the DVD version or VCD but in the end... decided to go budget. And there i sat alone in front of the flickering screen... its been awhile since i watched a movie without being disturbed...

If u are a person who likes action/humour/horror/special effects etc etc. I am afraid this show will bore u... bcos this show... only has the ability to touch your heart... to make it feel warm, to bring u to dreamland and wrench your heart; to cry for the male and female lead...

Synopsis: Japan's no. 1 actress, the charming Takeuchi Yuko (The Ring, Yomigaeri Resurrection) portrays the tragically deceased Mio. Her husband Takumi (Nakamura Shidou) and his 6-year old son Yuji (Takei Akashi) try to make the best out of this unfortunate circumstance living each day in silent remembrance of the beautiful days they cherished together with Mio as they desperately cling on to her final words, a promise that she will return on a rainy day. Exactly one year after Mio left them Yuji and his father observe a strangely familiar woman walking out from the pouring rain...

My Rating: As the show moves... it takes u into the simple life of Takumi and Mio and it touches your heart with their simple but deep love they have for each other... not realistic but definitley heartwarming watching the way Yuji and Takumi care for each other as father and son.

*****/***** 5 of 5

One Day Off - Off to where?

2005-12-07T20:42:00.000-08:00

Its 1245PM. Haix. Just got out of bed. Where should i be headed to?? I have duty this saturday. 12,16,27 are my next off days. 12 n 16 occupied with dance practice for Xmas service. Went to play LAN game with my colleagues after work... then i went out with my bro Kelvin...

Boss always tells me to "live for the moment as you will know what will happen tomorrow". I am concerned about life after death, but perhaps i am more concerned about life now...

Maybe...

3 weeks to Xmas... Happy Birthday Jason

2005-12-04T04:27:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Jason. Glad to see u after a year's absence. U still look the same. And forever will be a friend I enjoyed being with...

Thanksgiving be to God for answering my prayers. Reinforcements have arrived at a timely moment. I am no longer alone in office, and thus hopefully the stress level can be brought down to a humane level.

3 weeks left to Christmas... This blog of mine... with the snow flakes, white background, peaceful and quiet feeling, will forever look like its Xmas time... cos i love winter the most of the 4 seasons . Winter or Xmas... always means something special to me...

I wait on... In anticipation of a spark of magic...
(Should i buy a digital cam??)

Thanksgiving

2005-11-28T20:00:00.000-08:00

It is indeed amazing how God works in your life through amazing ways... Its just that sometimes we take them for granted.. or we choose to belive its just a coincidence.

I think whenever we send a prayer request, the 1st to see it is God. He will then decide on the appropriate action to take. When we pray for our friends and loved ones, it is like "persuading" our father to fulfill their prayers? Somethings i think it this way... since in God's eyes we are all his children, so sometimes we need to persuade our loving heavenly father on certain decisions as he enjoys hearing from us too.

Anyway i thank God for hearing this prayer of mine to help me in my work. In general, I have got work relieved off me for the time being. and i choose to believe in better things to come!

Going back to camp in about 5 mins. This song by Jay is very nice - "Wind". Listen to it.

Fail.

2005-11-24T01:57:00.000-08:00

Thanks for all the cheers and support given, all those smses and your prayers. Defeat has befallen on me once again, as i failed my driving test. Currently trying to pick up the pieces ... but life goes on... If the first you dun succeed, you can always pick it up and try again...

I will be back. Better than ever.

Minor Eye Infection = $30 / Driving License = Priceless

2005-11-22T21:08:00.000-08:00

I feel i spent too much this month le... hundreds of dollars on driving lessons... tmr is my test.. i really need Gods blessing for tmr.. have a smooth ride and get my license please..

Now surprisingly at home.. had a minor sore eye which infected 3 other pple.. Boss chased me home in case it spreads more.. but seeing the doctor killed me.. robbing me of 30 dollars of something which can be cured with just more sleep.

This is terribly boring to be at home with nothing to do... Think i need to spend more time reading rather than watching. Finish the book Trisha lent me and i will have accomplished reading my 1st book in more than 3 years.

Whole mind is filled with passing my driving test tmr... God please grant my wish...

Cool Good Fellowship. Thanksgiving

2005-11-18T05:01:00.000-08:00

Though the week is hectic. Though i am literally bz until i need to split myself to be in different places at same time, i am glad for the pple i have around me and i am glad i constantly spent quiet time with God. Thanks Staff Ooi for helping me in my armoury. The care and friendship we have built over these few months will definitley last and continue to grow even after I ORD. Haha haven got to take picture with him yet. But life in army is definitley better bcos of U. =)

Had dinner wif Pat, Trish, NatAsha and Yong Qing and Phillip joined us later at WEstMall. Had good time knowing them better. I hope this is not the last time i ask them out.

Dance team - Guys i am dancing on Xmas for a church drama. Please Come and Support!

My New CG

TEAM BRiGhtON Dance Ministry

Time to get things back on track wif God

2005-11-13T02:30:00.000-08:00

There have been a couple of times i heard this statement being made to me - "Who says being a Christian needs to go to church? I am still a Christian even without going to church. There are many so called "Christians" who go church just for the sake of it so what difference does it make?"

Finally. After being dumbfounded by this remark that intially made sense to me, i think i have a reply to them. Listen to this good. Definitely being a Christian doesnt mean going to Church on sundays only. We go to church because (1) it is a place where Christians gather together to praise and worship God. I emphasize that it is us Christians gathering together as one whereby we continue to stand firm in this world where the Devil rules today. If u arent going to church on sundays, what do you think you are doing? Sleeping at home? Watching TV? Doing your own things? (2) Going to Church is a form of love action whereby you take a few hours of your time dedicated to God instead of doing all the other stuffs mentioned earlier. So you see? Going to church means more than just going for the sake of it, Christians get together to (3) hear each of our own daily struggles with our walk wif God, our battle against sin and we will Pray against it for each other. In this world where the devil is king, we Christians are deemed "weird" whereby SIN such as anger and lust should not be committed. These sin may seem so common to the world today and thus (4)if we do not have church/christian friends to account for, one day you may just decide to turn your back on the promises you gave to God as we are born human and we are born to SIN!

I conclude that church is definitley more than just going for the sake of it. I do not deny that there are christians that go to church for other reasons such as their friends, bgr etc BUT there is no denying that Church is essential in sustaining us Christians in the Spiritual War going on.

Brighton Community Church is where I attend church and no matter what difficult circumstances i shall pray with God to help me overcome it. This week is a week i dedicate to God - I pray against vulgarities, against anger, against bitterness, against gossip, against frustration.

'I put on the armour of God and i shall overcome my enemies with Love. Not Hate'

Stress = Whinning + Acne

2005-11-08T04:41:00.000-08:00

This is very tiring for a tuesday. Felt like a childish kid complaining and whinning the whole day and i started getting on the nerves of others... started digging on the past to my colleagues which may have affected their good impression of me. Haiz. Sometimes it cant be helped when you are running the whole show on your own, when there is a sudden loss of 3 colleagues. Dave on ORD leave, YeoYI recovering from bike accident, Heng on course. Bo pian la...

Had a good time with my boss though, watched 2 movies on VCD with him and Allan. Funny seeing how they laugh, makes me wanna laugh too.

This few weeks alot alot of people's bday. Kang Wei and Jun Long's bday. Next Week Yuling and Wei Jie's bday. My oh my... let me celebrate with a driving pass!!

Speaking about pass... got a double promotion for my taekwondo grading... Now a green belt le.. yeah.. may the Lord bless me with a driving pass on 24 Nov ...

May each week pass sooner... this is really starting to take a physical and mental toll of me...

P.S. - Uploaded a "My Date With A Vampire" Banner. Cool?? Took out the "Beautiful Life" words..

Flashback...

2005-11-05T01:32:00.000-08:00

We are section 4 Pegasus Coy

Something is kinda wrong this week... its like having lots of things and thoughts on my mind... but yet i cant sort out what it is. Had been having lots of dreams but i cant remember them clearly what they are about either.. I smell very bz weeks ahead in office as Heng is going for course... leaving me to cover a 4 pple duty. Damn its sure going to be tough... pray i gotta be tough enough..

People tell me that i have little time left in army... but the 9months remaining seems like an eternity. Lately i have been hoping forward daily that the day will come.. when i can leave my office and go back NTU finally... but i look back.. a year ago where i was in Tekong in the jungle.. getting "tekaned" by incompetent 3Sgts. It felt like it was years ago already.. I can no longer remember the skills i have learnt... neither do i wish to remember the disgusting experiences i had in the Infantry. But i remember my friends who went through serious crap with me, and i thank them for being around for me. Those who encouraged me when i struggled, who gave me a hand when i found my limit being stretched. Thank you all. I wish that each and everyone of you who went through thick and thin are doing well and may we meet up for a reunion one day

Field camp. I cant even recognise which one is me.

Buddy CheeSian.. thanks for taking care of me, for lending me coins to buy drinks.. accompanying me to haunted toilet and for all the laughters we shared...

Getting really "shacked" during field camp

This week i had a nice dinner with Joseph on sunday to pre celebrate his bday.. its great talking to him.. our dreams... his fears and shock gossips... Joe and I have been through quite abit together eh? Glad to know he is in NTU as well... maybe we can fight hand in hand again in uni.. this time lets hope i am a more competent fighter.

Yes. Today its Grace's bday. Ooops i nv bought her a present! But i think i gave her a present that cant be bought already... Happy Bday Gal. I will be there for ya if u ever need me...

"A laughter a day keeps all worries away!"

-Grace

忘了隐藏

2005-10-31T08:33:00.000-08:00

Its funny... how u always cos my heart to beat 10x faster... to give me that adrenaline rush nothing could give...

Its funny... how jus one sms can cause me to smile like an idiot...

Its funny... what u can give me in 3 weeks tt no other could give me in the entire lifetime...

I packed a little gift - It is called "Blessings" and i hid it in a little place in my heart. Always ready to give a little bit of it everytime i think of you... till one day we can meet again, and when i see your smile .. i know u received this little gift .. delivered in a form so intangible... yet so real...

Life is supposed to be full of pleasant surprises aint it? *Winks
(hmmm... actually i realised i can also be poetic, pardon me for the bad english. This is wat army does to pple.)

Bad week...

2005-10-22T08:25:00.000-07:00

I cant comment on how bad my week can get... Work was so bad... I have not got such crap for months... Pple trying to take me out... and he did suceed... he brought me down... but.....

I AM NOT OUT!

I am a weed... that survives the tramples of bad people... I am a one that refuses to die... I am...

The survivor!

Fear not... the week will get better... I believe... There will be "A Better Tomorrow"

Week of "Gatherings"

2005-10-16T08:34:00.000-07:00

GMSS Faith 4-3 Class Gathering:

All who came...

The Guys...

And Gals...

Smile!

And again...

Pw N Me

Ah Tat is one of the reasons why i miss our sec sch class gang

This week i overspent. By quite alot. I think i spent almost 100 in total. But i had so many frens to meet up wif. Tue I went out wif my MP frens for KTV. Then my colleges decided to go KTV on thurs as well. Friday was my sec sch class gathering. Saturday was HuaLian's and Teck Wee's bday party. MAN! time to plan my expenditure a little more wisely...

Also time to put God back in the centre. Haven prayed hard enough. Always neglected him. If only Granny was around to pray wif me...

A Moment To Remember...

2005-10-09T02:52:00.000-07:00

Guys just keeping a record of which movies or show that gave me a nice impression and this month i liked "A Moment To Remember".

Story about guy who meets girl... girl gets alzheimer's disease... slowly loses her memory... shall not reveal the ending to avoid being a spoiler. But a touching story nevertheless that is worth watching for all those helpless romantics like me.

DVD

Currently involved in my church's Christmas Item. Gonna do a dance... just hope got can anoint me wif some cool dance moves... But must always remember to keep focus tt it is all in the name of God tt we are dancing for...

Gonna book in tonight... may the Lord bless me with a good week ahead..

(P.S. - thanks pple for dropping by on the chatterbox everytime u visit. keeps me informed of who were actually here. Do keep it up!)

What a week...

2005-10-06T02:55:00.000-07:00

Man, quite a week of happenings... I cant really remember how long its been since i last got so much much scoldings from other high rankings... but this week has been a bad week for work.

My boss has taken urgent leave to settle some business in Malaysia... supposed to be back today..but he smsed me yesterday to help him extend it till end of week... I am seriously worried for him... and prayed yesterday for his well being.. he's like an elder brother to me... Lets see how things go next monday...

Crashed and burned during driving lessons today... i hope my driving will improve... and i can have a miracle on my driving test on 24Nov.. *Prays*

Happy Belated Bday Sis. Tell me what can bro get for ya present? May the lord bless u in ur work so that u can have more time to spend on other things...

Sigh... tired ... Lets hope friday will be beta..

Bye James...

2005-09-30T09:43:00.000-07:00

My Brother James is leaving for Japan for a yr tonite... exactly on my one yr in army. Pity i disrupting in June...else when he comes back next yr, i can have double celebration of ORD n his return.

Take care James... may the holy spirit be strong in u...

Day Off...

2005-09-26T18:37:00.000-07:00

Yeah... today got a surprising day off! So shall book my driving lesson! But boss seems reluctant for me to go off... guess he needs my help.. so shall go back to office later tonight to see if i can clean up any undone stuff.

Finally realised that when something dun work. It jus wont work no matter how many times u try. The odds are stacked against me as always and I can never turn the tables... HAix ... This jus further brings down my already low self esteem...

Hey but heck? I finally managed to upload the pics! So these are for all who missed the action on sunday at Kelly's bday, in particular. (We were also celebrating Gidong's release from "prison", which only then u will understand wat is happening)

New eagerly accepts Gidong to society by presenting him with a "yellow ribbon".. erm balloon

Hey but wait! He decides to "blow up" the ribbon into one of more significant size!

Tk "punks" him out by sticking yellow ribbon on unsuspecting Gidong

Finally Bday gal Kelly takes a pic with her Poly Pals

DICT 28 special operation forces

Why class 28 left only us?!

things u nv got to see in poly - brazen New proposing to Kelly!

but in the end... New gets together wif tikee1 !

Well tts abt all folks... it took me quite some effort to upload the pics due to stubborn blogger features... so hope u all enjoyed it!

Renewing God's Love

2005-09-26T08:33:00.000-07:00

This was the message of yesterday's church sermon: Righteousness beyond Reciprocal Treatment.

43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Matthew 5

So difficult to do... to even not hate your enemy is difficult.. to have to love and pray for them sounds totally absurd... But tts wat Jesus did for his pple... to Love those who stoned him to death...

Was struggling wif walk wif God recently... felt guilty and unworthy to speak to God.. but during service today i suddenly felt like as if God told me. "I know u feel awful that have sinned n done wrong... but I will help u overcome your weakness bcos u r my child." Kinda felt better after being prayed for... to be able to remove my burden of bitterness n anger. I hope one day i can really have the grace of God, and pple can truly see tt i am different as a christian.. tt i am truly a son of God.

Went to sweet Kelly's 21st bday function. Happy Bday Babe! It was great meeting my old poly pals... gidong, TK, NEW, Eugene Yang etc. A pity the rest didnt come... i wan to upload some pics of the party... unfortunately blogger isnt responding... well i shall try again some other time.. spent almost an hr trying... sheeeesh!!

Pissed

2005-09-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

Anger - The feeling whereby ur entire stomach if burning... u take harder breaths... And u think u will snap anytime.

I cant believe i can actually get pissed off outside work... I mean what else can be worse than to be running a one man office?? Well, i jus found out that road bullies have the potential to turn me into a frenzy in a much shorter time compared to work... 1st he repeatedly flashed his headlights at my car. When dad wanted to change lanes, he cut him deliberately wif malicious intent. And deliberately slowed down... we almost CRASHED!

Alrite. Fortunately we didnt. I can imagine the consequences that will befall on him should he get physical with me 1st. I really shouldnt be talkin abt all the saddistic thoughts that i have in mind... so lets jus take it that he will simply be taking the passenger seat for some while before he regains his health to drive. HEY i am not crapping around bcoz he is a baldie according to my sis. While yours truly is a trained hybrid of Taekwondo and Karate. To back it up my nickname in BMT was "PTI".
Enuff Said.

Really should have a gd talk wif God. Think he is quite upset wif my recent behaviour... Sigh...

James is flying off to Japan next week. James if u are reading this leave a day free for me next week. Be ready to hear from me soon yar?

Till next time...

Both homes also must do "Sai Gang

2005-09-22T04:39:00.000-07:00

Hey pple i am home... all the way from Yew Tee... Have to help my father wif some household chores la... He is quite stressed himself having done this all week... so guess my filial instincts made me come home to help him out... Jus wish all the packing can be finished soon so that i can take a break.
I do not enjoy mopping the floor the moment i am home... neither do i like getting myself bz wif the broom or anything like that... I do not like being welcomed home in this manner...

Cheer up Keith.

Hey at least i will be meeting Gideon later on for a chat. Haven seen him for some time... he is back from Commandos training.. gotta check out how tough he is now.. heh..

Missed my QT yesterday night... gonna miss CG tmr due to COS duty... gotta spend some time wif God... but feel a little dry spiritually... Oh God please fill my spirit wif a miracle...

Kimura is out wif his latest drama "Engine". Not one of his normal heart touching dramatic shows but its heartwarming nevertheless... Still a good show for anyone who loves Kimura.

1st scene from "Engine"

And then there is "My Date With Vampire 3" ... Decided to save one entry specially for this one... Gotta catch both shows tmr on duty... least wont get so bored...

Good News - I finished mopping the floor. Bad News - Its about time to leave home... Cya man.

Welcome to my life...

2005-09-11T02:35:00.000-07:00

Hi all, just felt that i needed somewhere to post my happenings and thoughts so that my dear friends can know what is going through my complex mind... heh have a pleasant stay here!